Did I pay for the girl lying next to me?
I had a love, but little luck.
I don’t bleed any more 'cause my heart’s been crushed.
And now I’m free – lucky me.
Yeah my girlfriend was a bore, she don’t love me anymore.
I’m gonna make today sugar-coated.
I’m gonna get so high I’m lying here on the floor.
It’s time these shoes of mine were fully loaded.
It’s time to sit back and smile.
I’ve had a smoke and it’s been a while.
It’s been a while.
~ another song I like in James Blunt 's album
Sugar-coated ~ made to seem attractive 表面上吸引人 I think I live in sugar-coated life .... sometimes
Woke up early today again..... have had lots dreams latetly .....
"It's always a fault of mine , I hold memory " - I read this from a book I have been reading recently
actually .... I was thinking about it two months ago... HOLDING MEMORY 保存記憶 回憶為什麼會是個錯 I am often told that how bad my memory is ... many things I can't seem to remember ....good or bad ... I used to think it was really bad of me not be able to remember things have happened in my life
once someone said to me , "you always remember the bad , not the good "- in fact , I don't remember the bad as long as the issue has been solved , for example , if I have an arguement with a friend , and something she does upsets me , then I will remember it and feel unhappy for a while ...and I will only forget about it , let it out of my head till..... she and I have talked about it ... to clear the air ... either she apologises or I apologise ....then I really just forget about it ... SO I don't hold BAD memory ..
But I didn't use to hold my memory , but then I found that I needed to remember something to win an arguement with someone who has good memory ...... so I trained myself to remember ...... by writing down what's in my mind .... by taking photographs ..... BUT ... I don't find myself happy when I start remembering lots things .... When I look at the pictures I took , it reminds me of the wonderful trip ... and then soon reminds me of the reason why I was there ..... , I write down things in my blog to remember my thoughts ... I think " holding one's memory is certainly a fault " 我認為保存記憶 一直去記住一些事 绝對是個缺點 holding only good memories is a fault , 只有好回憶也不對 because you will be fooling yourself that your life is full of good memories ... I think we need bad memories to remind us not to make the same mistakes , to learn ..... 我們需要不好得回憶來幫助我們記取教訓
Now I have started deleting some of the things I put on my blog .... started deleting some of my memories .... things I don't want to remember...... I think now there is nothing wrong of me not holding memory ..... I do things , react to what people say / do base on my feelings not memories .... so I think I am going to keep it this way ..... I say things whenever I feel right to say .... not try to remember what you have said so I say something .......... life is hard enough for me ..... I don't want to challenge my poor little brain by remembering things that don't matter now .... 我可不想挑戰我可憐的小腦帶去記住一些對現在不重要的事
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