1月23日 中午 妞妞在我懷中斷氣 這個畫面每天都會出現在我腦海中至少一次 尤其是在我一人靜靜坐在房裡時 或是看著她的照片時
或是翻岀她的舊衣服 衣服上還有她的白色長毛 看著衣服 忍不住哭出聲 我還是很難相信她已經不在我身邊
一切發生的太快 好像一場夢 我努力讓自己的生活中充滿希望歡笑 家中有了新成員 一隻很有搞笑天份的 花露露 照顧她 佔掉我很多用來思念妞妞的時間
這也是我想要的 妞妞已經走了 不管我哭的多大聲 她都不會再回來了 雖說 偶爾 會把花露露叫成妞寶貝 ...... 很多對妞妞的習慣用語都會出現
不過 我還是捨不得虐待自己 想哭的時候 情緒來時 我就讓自己發洩一下 ..... 撐久了也會累的
the image that how Nyo Nyo took in her last breath and died in my arms on Jan 23 is replayed at least once in my head every day .... it is even harder when I am sitting alone in my room , or looking at a photo of her .... a few days ago , I cried when I saw one of her old clothes that still had her long fine white hair on .... I held it and thought of Nyo Nyo ... still can't believe that she left us already .. it seems to be like a dream .... everything happened so so fast
I have been trying to fill my life with some more laughters and joy by taking a funny new family member in... and she does bring a lot of laughters into my family .... it certainly takes a lot of my time to look after her ... so I won't spend a lot of tim missing Nyo Nyo ... I want to push myself back on track again ... coz no matter how loud I cry , it won't bring my babe back to me ...
though once in a while , I do call my new puppy " nyo nyo " ....
well........ I have been trying to hold myself up .... however , it's good to release my emotions a bit through tears ..... whether it's in the shower or before I sleep ... I feel a lot of better after crying ....
哭完了 心情就會好很多 .............................
日子一樣繼續過 ..... 
世界上 爲什麼一定要有生離死別??
為什麼 人生就是要如此?
我想 我大概永遠都不會懂吧....................
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