Tanya & Hua Loo Loo in Switzerland

been crying NONSTOP  since  Nyo Nyo died this afternoon at around 1 ..............     crying out loud  ..sobbing  ... tears falling ....  I just can't stop crying 

remembering she was panting heavily while lying in my arms and I had one hand holding on my phone talking to my sister .....  all the sudden ,  she made a sound , then she froze and never woke up again .... with her eyes and mouth wide open  ..... "  she stopped breathing .. she stopped breathing .... "  , was the only thing I was shouting to my sister on the phone ......   


I cried out loud .........................      started performing a CPR  , trying to blow some air into her lungs ...  for a second , she seemed to respond a bit ..  but it was all too late ....  


I called my mom and couldn't say much but crying  , and informed her that Nyo Nyo had just died ...      
then I combed her hair , cleaned her body a bit  with a wet towel and some baby powder ...   put on one of her pretty cloth ...    


we wrapped her in a blanket , trying to close her eyes .... but she wouldn't let us at the beginning .....   

 we kept talking to her .... telling her to rest in peace , and thank her for all the happiness she had brought into our lives ...............    we loved her  ...  


my sister tried to close her eyes again ....  this time , it worked .    Nyo Nyo looked as if she was asleep ....    so peaceful ...     


              at 4 in the afternoon , me , my sister and Vince were in a pet cemetery  ...        we worshipped first , asking the Buddha to take care of Nyo Nyo ...  and we said goodbye to Nyo Nyo for the last time .... I gently kissed her on her head again ...and cried ... 


it took only 30 minutes to be cremated .....       we decided to let her ashes stay with other pets there ....     

for me ...  she is gone ...    she can't play with me anymore ....  it doesn't matter where her ashes are ....      



                                     cried all the way home ....    when I entered my room .... I picked up and threw away some of her medicine , belongings ....   

Nyo Nyo is everywhere ... in my bed ... on the floor ...    under my computer table .......................     


I just miss her so so so much ....................       


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