Tanya & Hua Loo Loo in Switzerland

(從這http://tw.fashion.yahoo.com/blog/.0wxg5pJcv.ERNXd9h4URA--/article/?mid=1  看到這篇  心中有些感觸 ....另外  這張照片感覺  不錯 ......   )

                                                             

愛情一直在滋生蔓延，終於漫溢過自己的負荷，腳下於是生根。
在愛的傷害裡，我終於長成生根的大樹，能給自己樹蔭，遮蔽過烈的炙陽、雨水和狂風。

我不想失去你，我想緊緊的抓住你，我想要你。

聽到了嗎？樹葉沙沙沙的聲音，像淚水細微的移動，漫過眼眶，滑下臉頰，終於貼在自己的手心裡。淚水是學會愛的學費，我們一次一次的繳交，然後淚水越來越稀薄，一直到我們的心靜止，我們得以畢業。

但是；當淚水流盡，我們也就真的學會愛了嗎？
   
還是我永遠都學不會？

你說我太堅強，所以即使沒有你，我也會活的很好，我一直記著這句話。我總是在提醒自己不要過份的依賴你，且有時倔強的讓人不解，個性忽冷忽熱很不甜膩。我其實是在保持自己對愛的清醒，你不知道，像我一個這樣從小渴愛的孩子，一但掉進愛裡，會多自殤。我的自我保護，讓你以為我很堅強，但我不是的，我只是不敢放。

自我懂得愛以來，便一直都是這樣的，一直。

打針會痛、蚊蟲叮咬會痛、啃噬自己的手指會痛、但傷心最痛。

如果；你真的認為我沒有你也會很好，那麼；就這樣吧，就這樣認為吧！至少，你不為我多做甚麼，我或許就會少一些依戀。

我也許最終會長成大樹，在人世裡變的肥胖心寬；也許我會變的不再善感，不亂放任自己喜悲，我的眼神也許漸漸柔和無力，但是；那必定是我對愛心死的時刻。

只願我永遠在愛裡，不斷的學習，即使悲傷。



     

I am on this  brand new chapter of my life ....     I was  a bit sentimental this evening ..as my mom was telling me how she thought about my former relationship ... how relieved that she and my dad were when I made the decision to break up with him .....   and all of the sudden....  I feel really quilty for making them worried ...   mom said that she only wanted to see me happy , to know that someone could take care of me .... even though he didn't show too much respect to them ,or our culture ...   

it's been more than a year ....     and NOW I am just glad that God has been kind to me by giving me strength and faith not to give up on myself  .Though I made a lot of mistakes in the past and I am not perfect  ,  I have been lucky and blessed to have so many great opptunities , and love ....    thanks to my friends ... and my famliy for supporting me ....  :)     

        Thank you honey , for showing me what love is ,  bringing my confidence back ...  I am learning to love , and to be loved ..........