Tanya & Hua Loo Loo in Switzerland

Sandy said " He is childish " 

My mind was actually on a " blank " mode at that time ....     had no particular feelings or emotions toward anything I heard or saw that time ... 


but I heard about her comment on someone , " childish " , I sort of  "woke " up  ...     and I was asking myself "why is that childish ? "  , I wanted to know more ... 


I always thought that being childish is one of my trademark  , for my ex and his friends ...      slowly it became a typical image I had for myself when I had heard it often  from them . 

  And I even began to think that is nothing wrong with being said that I was childish , or spoiled ...    and I told myself that not so many people can be so lucky like me to be spoiled ...  at those times ... I said it to my friends with a smile on my face .



  Now I realised that actually I was feeling hurt ... 



what is being mature ?    and is being childish or spoiled a really terrible thing ?  



the article I posted last night , says ... 



" Being mature means to face your problems and the consequence by changing yourself  first "  


I never think whether the decision I am making is considered childish or not ...  I used to avoid dealing with some problems I had , and hope that they would eventually disappear ...  some did , but some remains unsolved .....   


I know the more I say ... you will think that I am only trying to give more excuses ....       more explainations ...............   


I know fine well what I am doing ..and why ...     



I have never been so clear about what I want in my life .....       


I now know a lot of things and still learning ....     confrontation used to be something that I was afraid of , I tried to avoid having disagreements with others , causing uncomfortable feelings with others .....    Howvever , I have learnt that confronting is necessary ...sometimes , not most of the time .     


I put all the courage up to talk to a very close friend of mine last week... and I am happy to know ...after my first attempt failed the week before , my second attempt was a success ...   well, at least , I didn't chicken out this time .....      ha ha ....