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something has had a dramatic change in the past week ....... I haven't told my best friends anything about it yet...
instead , I told a couple of new friends .... I can't explain why I am doing this ...
perhaps I know what they might say about this ..something I might not like to hear about...
I haven't been feeling restless for a long while ...
everyday I focus on what I have to do each day and I plan for my weekends ...
and I am happy with my current relationship with my ex , how we talk to each other seems to be getting better ...
at least , we no longer yell at each other or blame each other for things we did in the past .
However , while I was being content with the state with him now and moving on my life ... his sudden change of attitude has caught me unguard .
He called , and told me how he really felt , and how sad , and hurt he is .... and futhermore , he wants to meet and talk ....
seems to me that he has finally realised something and is going through the same path I was a few months ago- trying to figure out what I want and how I really feel about the whole thing
for me, I realised that I still love him but yet I couldn't forget what he said that broke my heart , and I hated him for that ... the more I hated him , the less happiness I got ...
so I decided to FIX this problem by contacting him again through emails , texts and phone calls ...
I needed to think of him as a good person not someone who broke my heart , I figure that it's better to LOVE someone than hate someone . We don't have to be together even when we love each other .
At the beginning , he was not very friendly ... however, he still replied to my messages ...emails .. we would spend about an hour or more on the phone talking ...
sometimes when he said something that I didn't feel comfortable with , I told myself to understand the reason why he was reacting like that , and not paying too much emphasis \ on what he said .
as the same time , I still continue do my things , live my my life .... to my surprise , he called me last Sunday morning and told me something that I didn't know what to say or react ...
and he wants to meet ... at first , I was , still am confused ... m
eeting each other doesn't seem to be a great idea.....
and I have thought a lot of things ... but still not sure which is the best ...
then a friend said to me , we already broke up ,
so it can't be worse than now ...
meeting him and talking about it might lead to two results , one , we both realise that we no longer have the same feelings that we used to have for each other and we can become friends without any hard feelings .
two , we might feel the connection between us and decide to get back together .... though there are still a few factors to stop us from getting back together .
I was telling him that I needed a week to think about it ... but then I really don't like the feeling of leaving this for a week and keep thinking about it ...
I remember what " Traveller " said last time while we were in HsinChu ,
he said , " Things are not complicated , but people complicate things "
" 事情不複雜 是人把事情複雜化 ＂
I agree with what he says here ....
so I decided to get it over with ... just to meet him so that he can find out how he really feels about me ... and how I feel for him
instead , I told a couple of new friends .... I can't explain why I am doing this ...
perhaps I know what they might say about this ..something I might not like to hear about...
I haven't been feeling restless for a long while ...
everyday I focus on what I have to do each day and I plan for my weekends ...
and I am happy with my current relationship with my ex , how we talk to each other seems to be getting better ...
at least , we no longer yell at each other or blame each other for things we did in the past .
However , while I was being content with the state with him now and moving on my life ... his sudden change of attitude has caught me unguard .
He called , and told me how he really felt , and how sad , and hurt he is .... and futhermore , he wants to meet and talk ....
seems to me that he has finally realised something and is going through the same path I was a few months ago- trying to figure out what I want and how I really feel about the whole thing
for me, I realised that I still love him but yet I couldn't forget what he said that broke my heart , and I hated him for that ... the more I hated him , the less happiness I got ...
so I decided to FIX this problem by contacting him again through emails , texts and phone calls ...
I needed to think of him as a good person not someone who broke my heart , I figure that it's better to LOVE someone than hate someone . We don't have to be together even when we love each other .
At the beginning , he was not very friendly ... however, he still replied to my messages ...emails .. we would spend about an hour or more on the phone talking ...
sometimes when he said something that I didn't feel comfortable with , I told myself to understand the reason why he was reacting like that , and not paying too much emphasis \ on what he said .
as the same time , I still continue do my things , live my my life .... to my surprise , he called me last Sunday morning and told me something that I didn't know what to say or react ...
and he wants to meet ... at first , I was , still am confused ... m
eeting each other doesn't seem to be a great idea.....
and I have thought a lot of things ... but still not sure which is the best ...
then a friend said to me , we already broke up ,
so it can't be worse than now ...
meeting him and talking about it might lead to two results , one , we both realise that we no longer have the same feelings that we used to have for each other and we can become friends without any hard feelings .
two , we might feel the connection between us and decide to get back together .... though there are still a few factors to stop us from getting back together .
I was telling him that I needed a week to think about it ... but then I really don't like the feeling of leaving this for a week and keep thinking about it ...
I remember what " Traveller " said last time while we were in HsinChu ,
he said , " Things are not complicated , but people complicate things "
" 事情不複雜 是人把事情複雜化 ＂
I agree with what he says here ....
so I decided to get it over with ... just to meet him so that he can find out how he really feels about me ... and how I feel for him
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